Expected the unexpected

Dear Readers,

Its been awhile i didn't update my blog. So many things happening to me recently. I don't know what should i classified. Happy? Sad? Excited?

Life
Alhamdulillah, its getting better day by day. I feel so much love surround me. Life without challenge will be dull i guess. Challenge makes you feel stronger and Allah will not giving the test if he know we not able to handle it.

I lost my team member couple months ago which i consider as system expert. He moving to better place which can give him work satisfaction and good salary package.. Good luck to him. So, i need to do extra job here. :). Some people said..."leave the company, they don't appreciate you..." ,"F*** off this job"..hahahaha...as for me...as long as my "rezeki" is here...I will remained here...

Love
Someone that i used to know finally became someone husband. Its glad to see he's found the happiness. To be honest, I'm quite sad when he is married but i guess there must a reason why Allah put me this way.

I got to know someone. But somehow, I don't feel he appreciate me at all. And I'm thinking to let him go. In order for the relationship to work, it need two person to tango. You can't tango with only 1 person. This is what i feel now. Now its been a week, we didn't communicate each other. Everytime, I'm the only person who start the conversation.

Finally i come to realize, this will not work. I have to do something. I guess, I'm going to be single again..hahahaa.. Human's love is only temporary..but Allah's love is remained forever...

Master Degree (Sheffield? UQ? QUT?)

For my master degree journey, i'm still on my way. Recently, I've applied 2 universities in Australia (University of Queensland and QUT). Both university have the subject that capturing my interest. 
I'm still in dilemma where to choose as for now, my heart is still choose Sheffield. 

Well....i need to sort out the financial assistance first. I already submitted commonwealth sponsorship to JPA for master in UK. Let's hope and pray for the best.

Insya Allah...

Cheers,
NSZ

As expected

Salam Ramadan to all readers,

Now we are in last 10 days of Ramadan. How you all feels? Too fast right? what have you achieved?

As for me, i still looking for an answer. 

I meet wrong people recently which makes me think about what actually i'm looking for. Btw, Allah is great that he showing me the true color of that person. I was so grateful. Experiences makes us more matured and be rational in what decision that we made.

Having good support from friend makes me realize, life is not about enjoying but it should be more than that.

well, I'm having very bad experience in my life and i will never ever forget about it. Because of this incident, ill be more and extra careful especially with GUY.

See you next post.

Cheers,
NSZ
20th Ramadan 1436H

Smile is sunnah

Dear reader,

For whatever happens its always comes with reason behind it.

Because of that, i need to be strong and make my life more meaningful instead of living in miserable way..

Cheers,
NSZ

New beginning?

Dear Reader,

Salam Nifsu Syaaban

Have you ever feel "if i could turn back time....."? 

Yesterday i was feeling that way. But now, i feel better. Everything that happen for reason. Allah know what is the best for me.As one of my good friend say "End is the beginning of new chapter". 

Thank you for the lesson...thank you for everything.....i feel blessed.. :)

Cheers,

NSZ

15 Syaaban 1436

Journey to Sheffield University Part 3

Dear Reader,

Now its for me to update my journey to this university.

I just got to know that MARA will be open the application as soon as. so guys, please be alert ok?

I will keep this blog updated from time to time.


Allah, I need this chance to move on.

"Kun Fa ya kun"

Cheers,
NSZ

Its Over....Goodbye my friend

Life is too short to be wasted. 

I realized and learnt one thing when befriended with him.. be confidence with what you do... don't easily say sorry for the things that you didn't do and don't easily put all the blame to yourself..

Thank you khaled Abdulrahman Ali for teaching me this lesson..I will remembered and treasure it this till i die.

And because of you i now have my own short term objective.....which i really hope i can accomplish before Eidulfitr.

انا اسف - I'm Sorry

Assalamualaikum,

This song makes me realize that i shouldn't give up in whatever i do. Try my best and leave it to Allah to decide. All this while, world only temporary place. Be grateful with what has been granted to us.

Mostafa Atef - انا اسف

ياما صدقتها الايام .. وبقيت سايبلها قلبى

واتارينى فعلاً محتاج افوق .. راجع وبكل شوق .. سامحنى يا ربى ..

فى حيرة من زمان تعبان ونفسى ارتاح بقى .. خدتنى سكك كتير فيها الحياة متزوقة ..

لقيت الدنيا دى كدابة فعلاً ما تساوييش .. وادينى رجعتلك وانا قلبى مشتاق للقى

انا اسف .. انا غلطان .. انا الى فى بعدى عنك روحى بتعانى

اكيد ندمان .. اكيد خسران .. ساعدنى لانى من غيرك هضيع تانى

ايوة جربت وروحت وجيت .. وسنين بتجر رجليا

واتارينى .. ضيعت عمرى بلاش .. فعلاً ما حسبتهاش .. ولا شوفت بعنيا ..

انا اسف .. انا غلطان .. انا الى فى بعدى عنك روحى بتعانى

اكيد ندمان .. اكيد خسران .. ساعدنى لانى من غيرك هضيع تانى

For long times i believe those days and left my heart
I need to wake up coming to you in passion..oh God Forgive me

I've been confused for a long time
Tired hoping to find rest
I took different paths where furnished life distracted me
Found this life fake and worthless
But i repented and here i am, yearning to meet you

I'm Sorry...I'm Sinned
My soul in your absence is suffering

Surely regretted, surely a loser
Guide me because without you I'll lose track again

Yes, i went back and forth
For years I've been consumed by this life
But i found out that I've wasted my life
without taking it into consideration
and didn't see for myself

Expectation

Assalamualaikum,

"Don't expect too much"

That sentence dedicated to myself. Less expectation, less hurt i will get. Life is about gambling. People come...people go....sometimes the wrong person just stop by in your life just to give you a lesson.We don't meet people by accident. They are meant to cross our path for a reason.

"When a girl gives up, it's not because she doesn't love you.But because she's tired of getting hurt and feels like you'll never care"

"Human's love is only temporary. Allah's love is forever"

Cheers,
NSZ

Life isn't what we expected to be

Hi...happy sunday..

Life can be unpredictable.. sometime you in top level and sometimes you be at the lowest level.

When you have everything..people will come and cherish you..but when you lose everything...no one is there to offer you hand.

Yesterday, i was shocked with 1 news which i should expect at the beginning.. bad situation can force people to be different person . And the worst part is..making the wrong decision. I'm not the one who can judge people based what he/she is wrong. But i can express my opinion to them...

For me, people deserved 2nd chance and as good friend, pray for them that Allah will showering him/her with hidayah. Allah will give his hidayah to anyone he wants even though for disbeliever.

Life experiences teach me how to be more stronger than before. Meeting wrong person..being hurt by that person..its teach me a good lesson..there is no other love that everlasting other than Allah's love.

"Syurga Allah itu mahal"

Cheers,

NSZ

Journey to Sheffield University Part 2

Salam Jumaah,

I'm back again...

Not much progress i made to pursue this dream. Yesterday, i got shocked with multiple news regarding IELTS, UK Visa and financial assistance.

Let me start with IELTS. I got to know from my fb friend that there are 2 types of IELTS available for this year. IELTS for academic and IELTS UKVI. IELTS UKVI cost me double of IELTS for academic. I do check with the university which kind of IELTS that they required. As expected, they need IELTS for academic. I asked again, is it can be used for visa application? i got no answer yet from them and will update soon once i got feedback from them. If it required both, then i should let this dream go as for now due to financial issue.

Now about UK Visa, i heard this year would be a bit strict for UK border to issue visa. I might not have an issue to got the visa. But, the price is increasing to RM1800. Again..its financial issue here.

Regarding financial assistance, there are a few rumors said MARA wont be offering any education loan for this year. Thea announcement will be made somewhere in June. I still putting hope that this is not true. If this is true, again i shall let it go and aim for next year.

Worst come to worst, i shall deffer my admission to Sheffield university for next year intake. But, i need to check either is this acceptable or not. If university didn't allowed it, i have to re-apply again next year. 

Ya Allah, i need what is the best for me. If this is the best for me, i accept it with open heart coz i know there is "hikmah" behind this.

"Allah...guide me all the way to your Jannah"

Cheers,

NSZ

Journey to Sheffield University - Part 1

Assalamualaikum...Annyonghaseyo....Ahlan Wasahlan

I'm back after a few months abandoning my beautiful blog.

There are too many things happening in my life recently. A bitter and sweet experiences. All of them mixed and teach me how to be a strong lady.

Despite the bad things that happen to me, there is a light that appear in the middle of darkness.

I got an offer to pursue my master degree at The University of Sheffield. Oh Allah, i feel so grateful for having this chance.

I got the opportunity to continue Master of Science, Software System and Internet Technology

My next step is to undergo IELTS test as soon as possible so that i can move it to the next level. i'm hoping MARA will open application soon

Oh Allah, help me to ease my way. This is what i want and i want to make my family proud of me.

Enough for now. I will keep updating my progress in this next post.. :)

"You may not be perfect in many things, but many things cannot be perfect without you..stay special in your own little ways"

cheers,
NSZ